| Location | Central Delivery Suite, James Cook University Hospital, Middlesbrough |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Natural Causes |
| Date of Birth | 03/12/2008 |
| Date of Death | 03/12/2008 |
| Visitors | 2,265 since 04/12/2008 |
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Silently born on 3 December 2008, weighing just 6oz and small enough to fit in daddy's hand. Ben
was a much wanted and much loved son of Denise and Gary and a precious baby brother of Gemma and
Garry. You were a miracle Ben and we wanted you so much darling but you couldn't stay. To hold
you in our arms for a brief time was a precious gift and we'll always remember and treasure those
moments. Sleeping with the Angels above because that's what you are, night night little one, sweet
dreams. Mammy and daddy love you dearly and always will. Hugs and kisses little Ben from your
big sister Gemma and your big brother Garry. xxxx
Dear Daddy
Daddy, please don’t feel guilty
It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling sad,
And the tears just seem to flow.
We all come to earth for our lifetime,
And for some it’s not many years
I don’t want you to keep crying
You are shedding so many tears.
I haven’t really left you
Even though it may seem so.
I have just gone to my Heavenly home,
And I’m closer to you than you know.
Just believe that when you say my name
I’m standing next to you,
I know you long to see me,
But there’s nothing I can do.
But I’ll still send you messages
And hope you understand,
That when your time comes to “cross over,”
I’ll be there to take your hand.
I see you looking at the rainbow with mammy and I hear you talking to the Bright Star each night. I see and hear you because I'm there.
Always love you........... always your Baby Ben xxxx
Dear Mammy
Mammy, please don’t feel guilty
It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling sad,
And the tears just seem to flow.
We all come to earth for our lifetime,
And for some it’s not many years
I don’t want you to keep crying
You are shedding so many tears.
I haven’t really left you
Even though it may seem so.
I have just gone to my Heavenly home,
And I’m closer to you than you know.
Just believe that when you say my name
I’m standing next to you,
I know you long to see me,
But there’s nothing I can do.
But I’ll still send you messages
And hope you understand,
That when your time comes to “cross over,”
I’ll be there to take your hand.
I see you looking at the rainbow with daddy and I hear you talking to the Bright Star each night. I see and hear you because I'm there.
Always love you........... always your Baby Ben xxxx
Daddy's birthday
Hi darling, it's daddy's birthday today and we wish you were here to enjoy it. Going into the nursery this morning to get daddy's presents, I couldn't help but have a cry when I saw the empty cot and your teddies. I know you were with us in spirit but sometimes it's not enough Ben. I gave daddy the birthday card from you and he cried but he loved it. Sleep tight my baby, always your mummy xxxx
This time last year...............
Ben........... this time last year I'd had 2 faint positive tests and hardly dared to believe you were inside me. Yet today I found out for definite. Such a lot has happened in 12 months and most of it not good. The next few months are gonna be hard because it'll be the 1st anniversary of everything to do with you; 1st scan, 1st kick etc. Last night your star was shining so brightly, you could see it as clear as the moon. I know you're around hunni but I can't help wishing.
On a brighter note, me and your daddy are starting fertility treatment soon because mummy has problems. So hopefully we'll be able to have a healthy baby next year and will be able to tell him/her about their baby brother in Heaven.
Look over us darling and sprinkle us with baby dust and luck with this baby.
Love you sweetheart, always your mummy and daddy xxxx
Hiya darling
It's mummy's birthday today. I wish you'd been here to share it with me. I know you were with me in spirit but it just wasn't enough. I needed you here Ben so much it hurt. Most days I'm okay knowing that you're still around me but just sometimes it's not enough. Sometimes it hurts so bad my darling that my heart breaks all over again. It helps to let the tears fall but only until the next time. Maybe, just maybe you were celebrating with your nana and all your family that are looking after you. Maybe you were watching us here............
I love you Ben, always have and always will. Not a day goes by without your memory entering our lives in some way, sometimes in a small way, sometimes in a big way. But always there.
Sleep with the Angels my special boy and know that we all love you.
Always loving you, always your mummy xxxx
xxxxx MY SWEET BABY BEN xxxxx
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I don't think about you constantly,
Wonder what you would have looked like,
What colour your hair would have been,
And how your smile might have looked.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I won't wonder what I did wrong.
When I won't blame myself.
When the sharp blade of pain will become dull.
When I can accept this as meant to be.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I carry another child
And though I will love him beyond measure
And though I will hold him a little tighter,
And though he will be my child,
He won't be you.
There might come a day sometime in the future
When I am happy again.
When I can let go.
When I can look at a baby without aching for you.
But it won't be today.
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If luck was a raindrop
I'd send you a shower,
If hope is a minute
I'd send you an hour,
If happiness is a leaf
I'd give you a tree,
And if you need a friend
You will always have me.
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This morning when I wakened
And saw the sun above,
I Softly said, “Good Morning Lord,
...Bless everyone I love!”
Right away I thought of you
And said a loving prayer
That He would bless you specially
And keep you free from care!
I thought of all the happiness
A day could hold in store;
I wished it all for you because
No one deserves it more!
I felt so warm and good inside
My heart was all aglow---
I know God heard my prayer for you
---He hears them all you know!
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We had so little time to share,
Too soon, I had to leave.
I know how much you love me,
I know how much you grieve.
I know how sharp your pain is,
I feel the aching in your hearts.
My life so quickly ended
Before it barely had a start.
I remember how you held me,
And kissed my face and hands,
You cuddled me so gently;
But, God had other plans.
I was your perfect angel,
From God you knew I came,
Suddenly he called me home again,
And now God holds my hand.
I know you’ll always miss me,
I understand your pain is hard to bear.
Just remember that I’m in heaven
And we’ll see each other there.
So smile when you think of me
And wipe away all of your tears
I’m cuddled now in heaven
By our family members here.
I’m waiting here in heaven,
And on the day we meet again.
I’ll be the first to smile and greet you,
When God calls you home.
Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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Missing you
Hi Ben darling, mummy's not feeling too good at the moment, and wishes you were here. If you were here I wouldnt have to feel like this but I know thats not your fault. I just dont think my body's gonna let me have another baby hunni, and that's really upsetting and annoying. I'm not asking for much am I? Just to fall pregnant and just one healthy baby at the end of 9 months......... I don't need 2 or more, just one. But it looks like I cant even fall pregnant. I'm lucky to have Gemma and Garry, I know that.... but just one child for me and Gary.....
Anyways I hope you're having lots of fun up there with all your Angel friends. Ask nana to send me some strength hunni to get through the next few months. Love you lots, always your mummy xxxx
xxx for Bens daddy xxx
It must be very difficult
To be a man in grief,
Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong"
No tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test
And field calls and visitors
So she can get some rest.
They always ask if she's all right
And what she's going through
But seldom take his hand and ask,
"My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night
And thinks his heart will break
And dries her tears and comforts her
But "stays strong" for her sake.
It must be very difficult
To start each day anew
And try to be so very brave ~
you lost your baby too ... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxx MUMMYS LIES xxx
My Mum, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until the day she dies
She'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mum how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mum how she is,
She'll say .. o im alright ..
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night ?
Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mum how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug her from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day that we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
With all the lies you told!"
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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